This Sea of Restless Waves

So Augustine calls the heart.

“Let my soul take refuge from the crowding turmoil of worldly thoughts beneath the shadow of your wings,” he prays, “let my heart, this sea of restless waves, find peace in you, O God.”

Some of you have probably been wondering how I managed to give up so early on my burgeoning weblog.

And the answer is not that I’ve given up but that I haven’t anything to say — which is not because nothing is happening, but because something is always happening. There is so much something happening I never have a moment to think, or to process, or to live anything.

The crowding turmoil.

There’s nothing wrong, I think, with a busy life. Sometimes (often) I miss the point and equate simplicity with godliness and I forget that Jesus was one of the busiest guys I know at times.

It’s what you do with, amidst, and besides the busyness that matters. The taking of refuge. The finding of peace.

I, like Augustine perhaps, tend to spend myself like I spend my time. My mind resembles my schedule in clutter and content — so that life becomes a fog which covers my heart and spirit until I can see nothing of God, though he be ever so present.

After a while, if I am not careful, even my pursuit becomes after time: which cannot save or be saved.

And so I start to hate the busyness of life because it keeps me from the things I love.

I began with a prayer and I’ll end with a prayer. Because what is there to do, after days that set you adrift on this sea of restless waves, but to end with a prayer?

This from Buechner, which I caught a moment to read today and which in turn caught me:

“LORD, catch us off guard today. Surprise us with some moment of beauty or pain so that for at least a moment we may be startled into seeing that you are with us here in all your splendor, always and everywhere, barely hidden, beneath, beyond, within this life we breathe.”



3 thoughts on “This Sea of Restless Waves

  1. I have thoroughly enjoyed my “good dose of Emily” today. YOU are a good writer and I think I am going to simply going to consult your library list each month to see if your wit and smarts might rub off on me somehow. I like your real-ness and transparency. My brain is too foggy with lists and the busy thing you described above to say much else, but the quote above encouraged me — it is true — He is so close and so amazing. Inhale. Ahhh, there He is — so good. Thanks, Emily!

  2. Oh yeah, and depth…wits, smarts and depth. I wonder sometimes if I’ll ever have time to be deep! Out of sheer necessity, I am almost wholly reliant on time with Jesus, the closest thing to non-negotiable schedule item, for depth…and well, many other good things like joy and stuff. This isn’t bad — it’s actually quite good, but I sometimes think I really need to get focused about exploring some of the other great works He’s created through the great minds He’s created, and stretch my own in the process. Okay, seriously, this is all the musing I can muster today — there is laundry to be conquered! So, I shall shift into “conquer” mode and attack whatever stands in the way of taking off on Wednesday at 3 am. Onward! Arrrgh! Oooomph!

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